snow day

today it snowed. all day. today i did nothing. well, not nothing. i did the requisite two loads of laundry, washed some bottles, thought about working on my taxes, and took a nap. i'm spent.

new year's eve...going out with a bang. 2008 has been...fast. last year on new year's day i learned i was pregnant--a very unexpected surprise, but such a good one. my last baby, and, being the stellar mother that i am, i dare say my sweetest baby. i know it's wrong to have a favorite, but can anyone honestly say they don't? i'm sure she'll even out with the others soon enough, but right now, she's the golden child. it seemed i was pregnant forever, and that the months since she arrived have flown. goodbye, 2008.

we had planned to have a busy family day in the city to say goodbye to the year, but the snow foiled our plans. so we had a decidedly unbusy family day, mostly spent on the couch. much more typical of our year than a field trip. i tend to lament the family we're not...i hope this year finds me enjoying the family we are.

boys are weird

my son won't eat. he'll take a little nibble of something, then say he doesn't want it. or he'll stuff his mouth full so that he can't chew it. i don't get it. he's always been more of a "drinker," but his eating strikes have never been like this.
can three year olds develop anorexia? one more thing to fret about.

baby laughs

my little love laughs. hunches up her shoulders, pulls up her legs, and laughs as though she's just heard the funniest funny joke that was ever told. she laughs at me, mostly. that's good, since i can't so much laugh at myself. she laughs when i put lotion on that little chapped spot between her chins. she laughs when she's swaddled up and getting cuddled for night-night and i kiss her cheeks. ah, baby laughs. might just be enough to erase this funk of mine...

and how did i get here?

i am finding myself in break-down mode this week. spontaneous crying, headaches, extreme fatigue...maybe it's not a breakdown, maybe it's the flu.
christmas is done. the tree is down. the presents are put away and all but forgotten. how is that? they were so coveted just days ago...
anyway.
i am contemplating a career change. any suggestions will be welcomed. i have to work from home. as my husband says, i don't like to leave the house. there are people out there.