the good, the bad, and the jiggly

one of my high school friends (hi lisa!) indicated recently that she is a serial blogger and that one of her blogs is her personal weight loss diary. that's what i thought i would start to do, also. i planned to start a new blog and make it private, but i think i'll just let it all hang out right here. i'm wild and crazy like that.

i started weight watchers (again) yesterday. the meeting leader is the same and she is really great. i'm going to try to let her help me this time, instead of deciding at my first plateau that i suck and i'm not worth the effort.

so....i weigh 192. that's a lot, but it's not my highest. i've always weighed a lot, and even when i'm a "decent" size, the number on the scale is still higher than one would guess. i think that's because i can not look healthy unless i have exercised regularly five or six days a week, so i have good muscle tone when i "look" healthy.

the trigger for my new beginning this time is that i just feel awful. i either sleep a lot, or can't sleep at all. i'm irritable. i'm foggy-brained. a lot of these issues can be traced back to a thyroid problem and depression; however, these problems become somewhat bearable when i'm at a healthier weight, while at my current weight, i kind of what to careen off a cliff.

my thyroid and depression meds seemed to have stalled out (ya think?), and since i'm not interested in trying new drugs and experimenting with side effects, i have decided that i have to follow the "thyroid diet" and try to feel better that way. coincidentally, much of the recommendations of the thyroid diet are pretty much in line with the recommendations of weight watchers. who knew? the diet isn't really a diet, but a way of living for the rest of your life to lessen the times that you just feel like shit.

so, yesterday was my first official day. i stayed within my points range and exercised. i did not get in all the lean protein and dairy that i should have, though. it has always been difficult to get those items in and stay within my points. i need to work on that. among other things. but we'll start with lean protein.